Memory is a Space in Between - Poetry Book Project

1. "Forward Means Backward"

I learned it's not always linear,

One way, forward direction,

sometimes you go a long way

around,

The future is just the past

A slingshot through the present

Time is an endless loop,

space is just a loophole in memory

A few steps back, and launch yourself

into tomorrow

and find your way back

and find yourself

2. "Aurora"

Suddenly solar flares in the news today

Some cosmic radiation radiating in everybody's minds

Southern lights in this part of the world

Unexpectedly vivid in one's imagination

like some wilted flowers in the front porch

a display of immense light

green and red and shades in between

the sky seemed to explode like supernova

But I missed it.

I was sitting on our deck with my naked eyes

contemplating on the naked truths

of the vast universe

My iphone camera captured traces

But subtle, indescribable , abhorrent

The aurora came too soon, well at least

not how I intended it to be

I wanted to chase it for a long time

I wasn't prepared for it chasing me

into regret and perhaps the timing wasn't what i hoped

Perhaps there will be more solar flares

or the sun exploding into nothingness

another light show for the ages

whilst I go turn off the lights

and sleep my way to oblivion

3. "The Effect"

The stage was set for that lovely evening

Could easily categorise it under the 'memorable' folder

somewhere in my computer

truly, indeed, the first time to be with you

the first time I realised

how beautiful those eyes

are

The characters talk about love

falling in love unexpectedly

is it the drug . is it real

it seems they're challenging

these deterministic views

And silently I began to feel

and thought , this isn't real , is it ?

here, being next to you

like the play, everything is make-believe

but I knew what I felt then was real

a beginning of something

perhaps

maybe

whatever it was that I felt

it wasn't in the script

and I might just have to improvise

these next few lines

my heart is now a stage

4. "Confusion Is Normal. So They Say"

One moment we're all good

the next moment I could

seriously ask you about how cold

suddenly you can be

One moment you smile

the next moment It feels it takes a while

for the silence between us

to find its rhythm

like notes to a song laid out equidistantly

on the music sheet

and yet there was no harmony

Or maybe I'm just overthinking

over-analysing all these -

verbal and non-verbal confusion

there is no solution

but to let it be

to let it go

I'll keep singing the vague lyrics

of my emotions

written by you

music by me

We can actually start a band.

5. "Process"

What are the timeframes for processing

your emotions

My guess is probably 5-10 working days

But also it depends on the experience

some take less than others

depends on the workload as well

you can't feel simultaneously

these things

that's why this is not an entry level task

I mean, you could do it but there's a lot

of learning curve

lots of training

lots of thinking

and processing...processing

But to be honest

it's not urgent

take your time

6. Strangers ..Again

On some days it feels like we're just strangers

Yesterday the sun was shining brightly in your eyes

I felt this was it, finally after all this time, this was it

the unmistakable warmth, the softness of your soul

and then today was radio silence

I did some research on the internet

to try to figure out why you would do something like this

why this happens

and yet it felt like searching on WebMD

my heart could contract a terminal illness

I'll die soon , and so it says

Then I saw a meme that said , "for your peace of mind,

try not to understand everything"

these are confusing times

indeed

but maybe tomorrow will be different

or maybe it will be like this

moving forward

like strangers again

7. "Not In the Plan"

John Lennon once said

"Life happens when you're busy making other plans"

and yet

I was busy not making any plans

And here we are

suddenly trying to plan

how I'm going to tell you

my plans of taking you

somewhere where we can

enjoy the wonderful evening

this was not in the plan,

to fall this deep

8. "An Unfinished Song Lyric"

I never thought I'd be back to this place

where my heart is racing at a certain pace

sometimes I couldn't keep up

and I'm thinking of just giving this up

and then you remind me of how

beautiful this life can be

you're a dream I wanted to see

every single day

but there's no easy way

Chorus

I shall wait and see

where this feeling will take me

I will make the most of this time

don't wa